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I am to the point in my life where everything and everyone around me is spinning and I am standing still and screaming at the top of my lungs but no one hears me and no one stops. I am 25 years old with two daughters who I love with all of my heart and would do anything for them. I want them to have all of the best things in life and everything that they dream of I want for them. The are so smart even at the age of 3 and 5 I think they no more than they should when it comes to doing things ahead of time. I guess that I got lucky with my second daughter because she was no problem to potty train she pretty much did that all by herself. My oldest will be in school this year and I am hoping that she will love it and do good. As for me this year I am done looking for the right guy. I found one but it was at the wrong time and now I'm just sticking with me and my girls. I am about to open up my very own store and I can't wait to see how it will do and if it does good in a little town where I'm starting then I might just take it into the city. I have had to depend on so many people for so long and am finally getting out on my own with no man to support me and not going to my mother to ask for help and I am so excited to be starting my life all over again because there are so many things that I can finally do now to better myself and not have to worry about anyone telling me that they don't want me to go to school or wherever it might be. I am just ready to do what I have to do to better myself and my family and I have no doubts what so ever in my abilities to do that. If I do happen to come across that one guy then that would be fine with me but as far as looking for someone to date and just dating the next guy that comes around this one is gonna have to do a lot of work and a lot of proving themselves worthy of being with. There is only one thing that I am really worried about and right now I want to find out what is going to happen if it happens and see where it goes from here.. Then maybe I can finally be happy once and for all but until then all I'll be doing is worry worry worry... About my family and me........... Peace and love to all